"I Think You're Afraid of Winning"

A good friend once told me,
"I think you're afraid of winning."

Competition. Every human by thier very connection to the animal kingdom exhibits the base qualities of this condition of survival. Fitness, right? Simultaneosly I have tried to embrace and reject this innate drive.

I have never thought of myself as a very competitive person, yet as long as I can remember in this lifetime I have shown the classic characteristics of being very much so.

Though strong characteristics seemed to have always been present, this way of being never meshed well within my psyche. Being competitive may have come naturally, but it always "felt" like I was "going against the grain."

This led to what seemed to be a primary condition to athletic performance below a predictable potential. The conditions for such scenarios orbit specifically around components that embody pressure, such as a race or even a ride with a person who may fulfill certain criteria of superiority.

Though the awareness of this internal struggle existed, the absence of understanding it obstructed the path to a solution and the ability to perform unconditionally at the highest personal potential physically, mentally and most importantly, spiritually.

The great sages of time have all said the same thing.
Only one sin: ignorance.

And so one of this life's conundrums asks again to be solved.

Today during the last class of Motorcycle Safety Course, the following subtlety spontaneously came to awareness:

In Truth, it is not the drive for competition, but the inspiration given me by my brother, with whom I share this moment, that encourages the drive to facilitate the manifestation for Excellence!

I claim no understanding still. I will however, in this new light, embrace the connection to my neighbor as we ride, be it on a trail or at a "race," for we as a group strive for Excellence in the endeavor at hand, whose truth lies in the essence of the Divine Father.

In order to aspire, one must first be inspired.